Closet Cocksucker

My latest tale of shame...
My last visit to the gloryholes.
Most people by now know what a glory hole is. Well, for those of you who don't (and I hope there are some girls reading this who don't know yet and will be shocked and disgusted) I will tell you. They are holes in a wall big enough for some guy to stick his cock through so the guy on the other side can suck him off. They can be found in park restrooms , restrooms of road stops and rest areas, and also in adult theater booths.

This is where I come in. You see, I'm the queer on his knees on the other side of the wall. I am the cock addicted homo fag that kneels down in the dark like the submissive sissy that I am and waits for a fat piece of man meat to slide through that hole. Yes, I suck them and yes those guys leave satisfied after the dump a load of hot jizzy sperm in my mouth and down my throat.

This last time was one of my more humiliating experiences. This adult bookstore is exceptionally seedy and dirty. I am disgusted just going in, and this adds to my shame as i walk from my car red faced hoping no one driving by will recognize me.
Once inside, my disgusting urges and cravings drive me to the back of the store.
The filthiest and sleaziest part of the place. The video booths. I have to walk past the other shoppers who are just there to buy porn. They are not there to commit the filthy acts that I am about to commit. I avoid eye contact, and still hope a normal hetero guy who I know is not there getting some porn. Because if he saw me go back to the video booths , he would know what I am.
Back at the booths in this place it is really filthy. And the guys hanging out in the hallways are usually pretty ugly or fat or just look queer.
Back here I want to make eye contact. This is how I let them know that I am here to suck cock. I drop all my manly pretenses and now in this little back hallway with the sounds of porn coming from behind these dingy booth doors, I let the world know that I am a cocksucker. Anyone in that hallway knows what I am ... a faggot,
and they know what I am not... a real man.
So I see this older black guy. We make eye contact. Good. Because this is my favorite.
Black. Black Cock. It's not enough that I suck cock, I must be a cocksucker for black cock. Big Black Cock.
So I slip into a booth with a glory hole and close the door. The old black dude watches me. I put the money in the machine and I switch to a straight sex scene on the video screen. I like to suck cock along with the girls in the movies. Perverted, isn't it?
Well, this old black man gets in the booth next to me. I'm already kneeling so he knows he's gonna get sucked. he pulls out this huge but soft piece of black meat. it's my job to get it hard. So i go to work on it and suck like a porn star. it is uncut, i am fascinated by uncut black cocks. i tease the head with my tongue .
I find black guys with huge uncut cocks like to deep throat, so i give it my best shot, it's big , but i do my duty.
well, this guy withdrawals, and goes back in the hallway. I know he will never find a better cocksucker. I've been complimented too many times to know that.
It is shameful, but I have been told what a great cocksucker I am a million times, but never once has a girl told me that I am a good lover. Which is probably how I wound up on my knees sucking nigger cock through a filthy glory hole.
So I give up on this guy and find another glory hole. I find a few cocks to suck, swallowing their jizz along the way. while i'm sucking I think how low I am, how shameful what I am doing is. how filthy it is. but i can't stop.
I think about my pretty female friends (you know, the ones who hang with me and have fun but don't fuck me), and what they would think if they could see me on my knees at this glory hole, greedily sucking on cock. I wonder if they secretly know somehow.
I find another booth, searching for cock and.....
Bingo! Another Nigger was already inside waiting for a cocksucker. He was wearing cameflouge pants and rubbing his cock. so i assume my position. He pokes the head of that black monster at me and I greedily slurp at it. But my shock and surprise come when he pokes that black meat all the way through the hole. This fucking thing was not only one of the thickest cocks i've sucked, but to make it more amazing and difficult, the fucking thing was curved upward at what seemed like a 90 degree angle. that's right. the fattest, curved up cock i've ever seen. and believe me when i tell you, i have seen many, many, many cocks... it's all part of being a filthy addicted cocksucking sissy.
And the cock is black, my favorite.
Now, this wasn't the easiest cock to suck, but i did my best. the base barely fit in the hole, and it was hard to get my head around his cock because of the curve and the wall it was sticking out of. But I pleased that freak cocked nigger. how do I know that?
The same way any bitch knows she pleases her man. he rewarded me for my hard work with a nice , sweet salty load of sperm. of course, it tasted great.
when he left the booth i stayed on my knees and decided to wait for the cocks to come to me.
i heard talking in the hallway. i had seen most of them as i cruised the hallway looking for cock, but i couldn't place all the voices. i heard one guy he sounded like your stereo typical gay boy, you know, with a lispy, femmy voice. i heard him say "he's really hungry", the other guys in the hallway laughed , and I got the impression he was talking about me. i figured i must be imagining it.
so i waited on my knees for the next cock to come through the hole.
shortly, someone came in the next booth. I couldn't see him, but was peeking thru the hole. i saw someone's shadow as the leaned toward the hole and i heard the lispy , femmy voice say " good position, stay down there, bitch! you're going to need to be down there." all the other fags in the hallway laughed with him as he left the booth.
OMG! he was talking about me. a lispy, femmy fag you would find on the street was making fun of ME for being too much of a fag! It truly was shameful, and as i sat there waiting for cock, too much of a pussy to take on this effeminate homosexual and tell him off... i realized a truth. I was a bigger queer than he was. I WAS hungry. I couldn't get enough cock. And I let him ridicule me like that, I was also a bigger pussy and sissy.
Eventually a tall , skinny guy came in. he was dressed between a cowboy and a hipster, with big belt buckle, long straight hair and sunglasses and tight clothes.
I thought about my friend Amy, once we talked about how tall skinny guys have big cocks.
Amy is pretty, and has never had sex with me, but with a lot of other guys. she knows i want her so bad, promises me sometimes, but never has fucked me or sucked me off.
I think she suspects I'm a cocksucker. More about that later.
Anyway, I gigled to myself and thought about Amy. And this guy's cock didn't look to big.
But then it grew and grew in my mouth, til it was really big. i was happy, and wondered what Amy would think if she could see me with that big cock in my mouth.
Suddenly, the door to my booth swung open. I know I had locked it, but the damn locks were worthless.
There was a tall, stocky, actually fat big black man peering in. I'm such a slut I didn't even stop sucking to look at him. I just turned my head to the door as i sucked and looked at him.
I went back to sucking and said to myself, fuck it, let him watch, i'll suck him next if he wants.
Suddenly the big black guy was in the booth behind me.
Well, I hear this big nigger saying , "suck that cock",
he was very forceful. I kept sucking. then i thought...
why not try to suck both cocks?
I reach for this big nigger's crotch and I start rubbing, still sucking the other cock.
the nigger undoes his jeans and he didn't smell good. but i had no choice. i needed that black cock in my mouth and a little bad smell won't stop me.
I looked back to keep sucking on the white cock but he pulled it away. Maybe he was racist and didn't want to share his faggot cocksucker with a big nigger.
It didn't matter anyway cause this big nigger grabbed me by my head and told me "Suck dat cock, bitch". Suck it.
so i did. He demanded, faster, faster, suck it bitch. yeah, that's it.
i complied with my black master. he was so forceful i couldn't refuse.
i put up with his stink and pumped my face and mouth furiously on his cock. i rammed my throat all the way down on his big black cock as he moaned.
i pulled it out and tried to lick it lovingly, but he wouldn't have it that way.
"Suck dat cock, bitch. Pumping my head up and down on this large negro shaft as my
black master commanded me to please him.
suck it, suck it, yeah, faster.
i couldn't suck fast enough. finally he exploded in my mouth, his black cock and my mouth pumping so furiously he shot his big load in my mouth, on my face, and on my t shirt.
When my superior nigger had used me for his cum dump, he said "damn, you suck cock like that you should be in the movies"
another compliment.... about my cocksucking.
This big smelly Nigger then zipped up and left me covered in his sticky, creamy jizzy sperm. Still wet on my face and on my shirt, the taste still in my faggot's mouth. Being summer, I was a sweaty messs, the smells of fresh and dried nasty sperm permeated my whole body and clothes. I was a stinking , cummy mess.
as i sat there, I thought of what a bitch I am , how I let this man use me like a bitch.
And I thought of Amy, how she would never fuck me if she could see me now.